it isn't that fun

is this what i expected ?
is this the life i always wanted ?
no i won't continue

until i meet you in the sky avenue

HAH apa sih itu tadi, gak ada maksud z. tapi dua kalimat pertama itu rasanya bakal jadi topik post saya (enakan pake saya? aku? atau gue?) kali ini.
HERE, i was always wanted to get into the best high school so i could escape the fate dan gak jadi anak paling pinter di sekola bapuk lagi. and i made it (applause, please?). and then everything changed. voila! enggak ada lagi orang yang bikin syaraf gue terganggu gara-gara ketawa dan enggak ada lagi orang yang bisa gue celotehin semau gue. done. ehhh, no it's not done, yet.

it's just fatiguing when i can't do what i used to do. scream, dream and other things. GAHH congratulate me if i can stand this for the next three years.

actually it's not that bad. gue cuma ngrasa udah gapunya orang yang bisa bikin gue berisik ='(
i know i whine too much these weeks, please don't hate me. i just i just i just, need someone to be HERE and tell him/her some tales. you know what i mean? i need a friend, darl, i need a friend. yaaaa bukan berarti gue gapunya temen di kelas, sih, tapinya kan mereka gak bisa kayak temen-temen gue yang dulu (weiss dulu gue punya TEMEN loh).

i don't wanna be in high school if high school isn't that fun. where is the joy? yang ada cuma peer banyak, nganga kayak orang bloon pas pelajaran matematika dan diem pas anak-anak lain asik ngobrol. is that what i expected? is it? NO. maybe this is just the beginning, idk. yang jelas ke depannya cuma ada tiga pilihan, flat, worse atau better.

oh yeah by the way, this excruciating condition gave me inspirations to write. yap, nulis. nulis cerita. cerita yang enggak pernah kelar kayak novel-novel gue sebelumnya yang masih jadi 'draft' di microsoft word.